you won't fool

the children of the revolutionnnnnnn

yeah, so it's 3:13 AM and i've been reading old notes, looking through old favorites from my aol account and forgetting who i am in the present to live as who I used to be for a few hours.. and it's pretty mentally taxing if you ask me. i tried listening to MCR but just couldn't do it. or i could, but not for too long.

i wonder how long it is until i find a true meaning for life [ie-someone to change the meaning] and not just this limbo shit where i feel like i know everything even though i know i know nothing at all. -whew.-

i'm really glad i am who i am now, and not who I thought i'd be now... because if i were who i thought i'd be now like 4 years ago i'd be riding around in a van seeing the country on tour with a band with an imaginary drummer, a tan.. famous.. eh. i mean, i doubt it'd happen anyway but whatever.

uhh shit i better just try to go to sleep.

it makes me sad that danielles xanga is gone.

hmm

You Look Like an Aquarius

It's likely that you are very striking. You stand out in a room. You are probably also taller than average, and that also helps you get noticed. You have classical facial features... what some might call a handsome face. You have are attractive in a cool way. You're so attractive, it's intimidating. Like most Aquarius people, you are probably extremely independent... both in your thoughts and actions. You find other people fascinating, and you develop deep, long lasting friendships.

What Sign Do You Look Like?

dear free people clothing company...:

why, oh why, do you have EVERY single item of clothing i have ever wanted, but have outrageous prices? are you teasing me? taunting me..? you know I am a meager middle class girl who wishes to dress the way she wishes, but it seems you would rather have me suffer to save up for one purse that costs 128$.

i want to win the lottery only so i can buy every item of free people clothing, ever. that will be my new goal in life.

i also want some new headphones, from urban outfitters. who also sell amazing clothing at ridiculous prices. why on earth would they make me pay so much?! bahh. once i get a job.. i'll buy all sorts of things. mark my words!

anyway. i guess that's all.

I was..

going to make a blog on here.
but i forgot what i was planning on saying..


OH, right.

things i loved before i knew you and you simultaneously corrupted them because we had everything in common for a while. [aka/things i will keep loving because.. you're stupid.]
a)pulp fiction. --fuck you. i can quote that movie and you only think you can. it's "any of you fucking pricks MOVE, and i'll execute every motherfucking last one of ya'" not.. whatever the hell it was that you said. and you are not my pudding. i was never your honey bunny. !!!

b)rancid. yeah, so we all know you have a hard-on for tim armstrong, but i was rocking out to ruby soho and time bomb before you knew me.

c)american FUCKING psycho. yeah so... we all know you ALSO have a hard-on for crazy christian bale, as well. [coughcough, thedarkknight coughcough.] em& me watched this 3 years ago when her crazy-horror-obssessed movie neighbor let us borrow the vhs. we watched it and ate mozzarella sticks in my room while he threw the chainsaw down the stairs.

d) cruel intentions. yeah, i might not be able to watch that scene again for a while, but i loved it for like, forever before you.

e) the big lebowski. fuck you and your old profile song from that scene where the dude had the weird dream about going through all those girls legs on the bowling alley.. i can't remember the name right now. fuck you. i bought that movie the july[ish] before the january we started talking. [again.]

f)other things i'm too lazy for a personal review on, that i will instead put into list form. office space, walk hard, superbad, foo fighters, the offspring, weezer, the decemberists, bad religion, the white album by the beatles, the white stripes, pictures of you by the cure, alanis morrissette, sufjan stevens, that song by the verve from cruel intentions, panic at the disco, the smiths.. etc.

things i wasted money on, that you said you liked, that i wish i could get my money back on:
a) that joker shirt from hot topic. because 1) it's too tight since manufacturers seem to think a size "medium" should snugly fit a small-sized chihuahua and 2)i can't fucking look at it. happy?
b)no country for old men. i hated the ending. ok so it wasn't that bad of a movie. i was just looking for a 'b'.


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yeah so. i bought pulp fiction, bridget jones' diary, be kind rewind, dawn of the dead, planet terror and a modest mouse CD today. and turned in some drawings in perceptual drawing class,

i think the last class for stupid 2D Design is on thursday, thank babyzombiejeezus. ugh i cant stand another class with that narcissistic man! he is the DEFINITION of a person that only loves talking for the sake of hearing their own voice. ughhhhh.

anyway, i guess that's all. this post was bad. meh, too bad. i got some things of my chest that's been bugging me, and i spose' that's all that matters.

oh. and today's my mums birthday. she is the HARDEST person to buy things for. in the history of the world. ever. the end.

music for you, my dear.

i don't know who you are. but i love you. i'm feeling happy. here's the music i talked about up there. :

I hate..

now, i'm not sure yet if i'm going to make this a post exclusively a list of things I hate but i'm definitely going to name a few.

1)douchebag boys that are already dating somebody new that won't leave me the fuck alone and still prank call me from blocked numbers and try to get their friends to add me on myspace since I deleted him and my profile is private and that bugs him since he probably wants to leave me a hateful truthbox comment [which i've already taken down]. i know that, gramatically, that last sentence was all over the place. but i'm trying to keep things together. the saddest part? i didn't do a thing to him. fucking nothing. and i'm glad I never did anything with him, in other ways too. but really, he ignored me for a month and now it seems he's just doing things to piss me off.

I also feel sad for poor ignorant girls that get swept away by said guy and end up in 'love' with him, or whatever love is when your a neurotic asshole who wants everyone for himself.. i actually feel sorry for that girl. since he is an awfully ugly son-of-a-bitch, too. MUSIC/MOVIE TASTE DOES NOT MAKE A GUY.

I want to flash his name in lights, everywhere, and let everyone know how much of an asshole he really is. or just hear he's sadly died in a car wreck on the intersate on the news.. i really hate him that much.

2)I forgot where i was going with this list. i hate english homework.. and distance. the distances between oceans and continents and other things..

in other news..:
i'm feeling slightly sick. but my friend wants me to meet her at applebees tonight.. so i will. woot

spose' that's all. not that anything is successfully 'off of my chest'.. that will take a lot more than a blog on blogspot that nobody will ever read. an awful lot more.
-c

artsy fartsy things

i've been uploading it everywhere, but whatever. I'm gonna do it again.





















yup, well took me around 12 hours to do, and the pencil on the left is for scale.. i'm really proud of it. i can't remember why I was making this blog other than bragging about my drawing.

so i'm watching spaced right now and i've decided that I want to move to england. or.. uh, visit there, at least. maybe visit for an extended amount of time. i wonder if i could pull of a bridget-jones-esque fake accent for very long? haha, probably not.

in other news, i'm procrastinating again.. there's some thing that i'm supposed to do for english tomorrow, but oh well. also, i have a crick in my neck. and i'm starving. but i'm not gonna go eat anything right now..

any suggestions on how to make this blog not look quite as lame? layout-wise..? or where i could find a layout.. etc.

would most definately be helpful.

so i guess that's all for today..
-c